After putting off a long overdue doctor’s visit – I finally dragged my ass to the clinic on Monday night and I have some great news I’d like to share with you all.
Not pregnant. Relax.
But I am starting the process to get off my anti-depressant medication #GoodbyeZoloft.
Those of you who have been following my blog from its creation last November would be aware that my anxiety and depression spiraled out of control due to the end of my long-term relationship. This caused me to jump on the medication and start seeing a therapist.
From the get go – I was hesitant to take meds, but I knew that it was something I desperately needed at that point in time. Had I not resorted to this option, I would not be where I am today. I did maintain however, that I did not want to stay on them for an overly long period of time.
I truly believe that I am at a stage in my life, once again, of legitimate happiness and contentment. I judge this by my overall emotions, my sleeping patterns; the way in which my body is changing and the amazing people I currently have around me for support. The biggest indicator? – I weigh the heaviest I have EVER been, and that speaks volumes to a girl who has struggled to put on weight for her entire life.
The above factors have lead me to conclude that now is as good a time as any, to start gradually reducing my medication, before finally completing my intake altogether. With support of my doctor, this process can take up to four weeks.
I am both excited and nervous about the next phase of my life – a new stage of learning in my healing process without the aid of meds. Spiritually, I have adopted practices such as yoga, crystal healing, aromatherapy and self-care in the form of treating myself to some new clothes or a pampering session. I make sure to love myself first and foremost, in the hope that someday, someone out there will love me and value my worth just as much as I value myself.
I feel now that I am better equipped to deal with my anxiety and my low moments. Sure, there’s no telling what the future will hold – perhaps I will need to revisit medication one day. But I do know one thing – I will never be made to feel as I did in the year that was 2015, because I am now armed with the tools, knowledge and experience to get me through.
Love & light to all