I’ve been debating whether or not to write a post about this but I figured that I wouldn’t be true to myself and my readers if I didn’t share the happenings of my life, feelings and emotions – good and bad.
Over the past week or so, I have been feeling a little lonely. Not the kind of lonely caused by not being in a relationship – it’s the kind of lonely caused by the questioning of the intentions of those around me. Don’t get me wrong, sounding like a sooky la la is the last of my intentions, and I completely understand that friends and family can get caught up in their own busy lives. But sometimes people choose to knowingly leave you out, or not reply to your message and calls to catch up and that can really hurt. For me personally, communication is key, whether it’s within relationships or friendships – open communication and a receptive listener is imperative.
Having gone to an all-girls high school, I’ve become attune to the shift in vibration when something isn’t right within the friendship circle. Rather than openly discuss any issues – some girls tend to retreat while they build their army and recruit their allies in preparation for the exile ceremony. It’s a sticky situation that’s difficult to get to the bottom of, especially if you’re not on close enough terms to approach them and ask what’s wrong.
It’s been a very strange week for me, and I can only hope that things start to look up. I’m still searching for a paid job and I can’t help but think that if I were working, issues such as this would not be getting to me so much. Despite what happens, all I can do is be myself and continue to be honest and true to those around me.